This time of year is especially rough on me. I try my hardest to keep a positive outlook on life. But the truth is I’m sad, I’m manic, I’m bitter, I’m lonely, and I’m wishing that this pain will subside. I realize and recognize my own issues and this pain comes and goes with the season but I’m beginning to wonder if I can even cope this year. I’d love to fall asleep and let December just pass me by. The new year has me excited this crap doesnt.